Yes. Yes you are.
So, here it is: the final stretch of school. The last leg of my senior year, just a teensy tiny bit more to suffer through, and I'm OUT! Everything is easy, no homework, no classwork, just lazing around and waiting for graduation. OH WAIT JUST KIDDING. I've got a test every day this week, more homework than I've had in a long time and I've gotta try and keep on top of all of it if I want to make it out alive. Bah, fie on't.
It doesn't help that people still suck. I mean, you'd think I would be used to it by now, but sometimes it still bothers me, still grates away at me. I'll take that as a sign that I haven't given up yet, ya know? Still stubbornly holding on to the idea that things can change-- that I can change them.
Listen to the music by The Doobie Brothers just came on. Good song.
But honestly... me being aware of the fact that people suck isn't much help to me. I'm pretty quiet to begin with (although sometimes you can't get me to shut the fuck up), and when I'm in a group of people, nodding, offering token answers while mentally rolling my eyes and groaning at them... well, I only get more reserved.
Though, I'm still pretty reserved, even surrounded by people I like, and it gets misinterpreted. People think I'm bored, people think I don't care, people probably even think I'm a snob... but the fact is that I just like to sit and watch and take things in. I can be drifting around a group, listening to various conversations, contributing very little myself, and have a great time. I'm not nearly as melancholy as I get mistaken for.
What are you doing here, reading this? Killing time? Interested in learning about me? Just creepin'? Nah, it's all cool bro. Just a little bit surprising is all.
11:14. make that 11:15. I missed the wish-making time.
Hm. You kn-- ah fuck. I had something I was going to say, but when I stopped to comment about the wish thing, I forgot it. It was pretty non sequitur, so I can't just follow my thought trail from before and find it.
You know that whole Facebook (Rock 'N' Me by Steve Miller Band just came on. Good song.) thing? Man does that dig at me sometimes. It's really useful, it stretches out across the internet now-- compatible with TONS of sites, which makes it a great hub to focus on whenever you're online. But it's got people on it. Which means there's a whole lotta stupid floating around.
Like those fan pages, for example. "random statement... LOL JK something that contradicts previous statement." Oh, hey, that's cool. You're hip and ironic. And then there's the stupid-question-that-looks-funny-but-nob
I hate when stupid people try to tell me I'm wrong. It just reminds me how fucked we all are. Like the guy who tried to tell me the US wasn't a republic. He ended up coming to the conclusion that I'm a crazy radical who doesn't know anything. He actually took on a condescending tone. Fuuuuuck that.
Speaking of which, I swear like a sailor. Like, way way more than I probably should. But honestly, I don't care. Swearing for the sake of swearing is one thing. But if you're using it to convey a certain tone, to express heights of emotion that you can only really get with a swear word... well, I think you're just using language as effectively as you can. So people get offended. People get offended about a lot of things, and for the record, people just aren't that smart.